I will have a movie to upload when I get home........
But, my baby graduated pre-school today....


Wordless Wednesday

Girl in the 70's

Drama Mama e-mailed this to me.......I wasn't even "in" when I was younger....*sigh*

You had that Fisher Price Doctor 's Kit with a stethoscope that actually worked.

nope...didn't have it

You owned a bicycle with a banana seat and a plastic basket with flowers on it.

nope...had a blue schwin, no basket.

You learned to skate with actual skates (not roller blades) that had metal wheels.

Yes!!! They were white with blue and red stripes and I had a matching skating outfit that consisted of a white leotard with red/white/blue stripes down the inner arm and down the side and of course I had the matching skirt!!!

You thought Gopher from Love Boat was cute (admit it!)

Damn....and I thought I was the only one.......

You had nightmares after watching Fantasy Island.

Nope....I liked Fantasy Island...I wanted to be one of the dancers

You had rubber boots for rainy days and Moon boots for snowy days.

No rubber boots...my mom said they were a waist of money. I did have moonboots in 4th grade!!!!

You owned "Klick-Klacks" and smacked yourself in the face more than once.

No....but I did smash the heck out of my fingers once with a friends set.

You had either a "bowl cut" or "pixie" not to mention the "Dorothy Hamill". People sometimes thought you were a boy.

Had the pixie and the DH and I even used "Short and Sassy" shampoo that DH was the spokes person for!!!!

Your Holly Hobbie sleeping bag was your most prized possession.

Had nothing Holly Hobbie. My mom said she wasn't cute.

You wore a poncho, gauchos, and knickers.

No poncho but I did have gauchos and knickers....

You begged Santa for the electronic game, Simon.

No, but I got one.

You had the Donnie and Marie dolls with those pink and purple satiny shredded outfits. (I had a chrissy doll who's hair grew)

No Donnie and Marie dolls. I did play Donnie and Marie with Rusty Anderson when he was at his grandparents house. We would skate around and pretend we them on their show.

You spent hours in your backyard on your metal swing set with the trapeze. The swing set tipped over at least once.

Nope....no swing set....ever.....

You had homemade ribbon barrettes in every imaginable color.

Nope....my mom has never had any artistic ability....

You had a pair of Doctor Scholl's sandals (the ones with hard sole & the buckle).

Yep, bought them at Farmington Drug with Kelli McBride...

You wanted to be Laura Ingalls-Wilder really bad; you wore that Little House on the Prairie-inspired plaid, ruffle shirt with the high neck in at least one school picture; and you despised Nellie Olson!

UUUmmmm....NOPE!!! But I did think Nellie was quite the witch!!!

You wanted your first kiss to be at a roller rink.

No, and have never kissed anyone at a roller rink either....

Your hairstyle was described as having "wings" or "feathers" and you kept it "pretty" with the comb you kept in your back pocket.

Feathered....and I had a blue/pink/purple swirly comb...thank you very much

~ When you walked, the "wings" flapped up and down, looked like you were gonna "take off"

No, I smushed it down and sealed it with hairspray....hate big poofy hair

You know who Strawberry Shortcake is, as well as her friends, Blueberry Muffin and Huckleberry Pie.

I had all the dolls and even Apple Dumplin', the strawberry carrying case and the canister set!!! My mom thought they were "precious" so I got to get those...

You carried a Muppets lunch box to school and it was metal, not plastic. With the thermos inside! (mine was Peanuts and Snoopy)

Nope...I had a geeky "purse" lunchbox that had sea creatures on it....

You and your girlfriends would fight over which of the Dukes of Hazzard was your boyfriend.

Nope...they liked Rob Lowe and Scott Baio...so I had Bo Duke all to myself!!!

YOU had Star Wars action figures, too!


It was a big event in your household each year when the "Wizard of Oz" would come on TV. Your mom would break out the popcorn and sleeping bags!

Nope...I didn't even see "The Sound of Music" until my Jr. year when Drama Mama made a big deal out of me never seeing it before...

You often asked your Magic-8 ball the question: "Who will I marry.
Shaun Cassidy, Leif Garrett or David Cassidy..?"


You completely wore out your Grease, Saturday Night Fever and Fame soundtrack record album.

Nope...mom didn't like music....didn't have a record player till my Sophmore year...

You tried to do lots of arts and crafts, like yarn and Popsicle-stick God's eyes, decoupage or those weird potholders made on a plastic loom.

did the potholders...

You made Shrinky-Dinks and put iron-on kittens on your t-shirts!

nope...didn't get to do shrinky dinks and parents hate cats!!!

You used to tape record songs off the radio by holding your portable tape player up to the speaker.

Nope....music thing again...but once I did get a stereo...I could record the radio "inner stereo"

You had subscriptions to Dynamite and Tiger Beat.


You learned everything you needed to know about girl issues from Judy Blume books (Are you there God, It's me, Margaret.)

Never read Judy Blume....

You thought Olivia Newton John's song "Physical" was about aerobics.

It's Not???

You wore friendship pins on your tennis shoes or shoelaces with heart or rainbow designs.


You wanted to be a Solid Gold dancer.

Well of course...I even had a make shift dancer costume!!!

You owned a "Slip-n-Slide",on which you injured yourself on a sprinkler head more than once.

Nope...never had a slip-n-slide

You drowned yourself in Love's Baby Soft - which was the first "real" perfume you ever owned .. .

~ you glopped your lips in Strawberry Roll-on lip gloss till it almost dripped off.



This Weekend's Intense and Awkward Conversations

The blunt truth that comes out of children's mouths.....is a blessing and an eye opener.

Friday night as we were sitting at the dinner table, Alec put down his fork and put his hand under his chin, leaned on the table and looked at me and then said "Mom, what is love?"

He looked so serious, no silly smile or anything...just his simple question.

My answer was, "It's when you care for someone very much and you want to take care of them."

"Like you take care of us?"
"Yes, like that. I love all of you boys very much and would do anything for you and always try to take the best care of you."
"Daddy doesn't take care of us, so he doesn't love us?"
"Daddy loves you, he (pause) needs to try to take care of himself."
"Do squirrels eat acorns?"

Whew...thank goodness for the subject change!!!!!

Then meth-head called on Saturday. I wouldn't converse with him, I just told him hold on and let me try to find the boys. While I was searching the front yard he tried to talk, but I was pretty frigid. Finally found the boys and gave the phone to Ashton, after about 2 minutes he said "Dad, mom got us new gloves and I really need to go pull weeds. Bye" and he hands the phone to Alec.

Alec says: (the side I heard)

"Hi Dad"
"I'm fine, are you still in jail?"
"Your out of jail?" "Mom, dad is out of jail!"
"Dad, I've never known you out of jail"
"Mom, he is in Albwerclerkey" (supposed to be Albuquerque)
"I have to go dad, Ashton is pulling weeds without me" hands me the phone.

I can't hold in my laughter. He didn't think any of it was funny. He then asked if he could call later in the week. I told him that we have to set up a routine so the boys know what to expect so he needs to call on the weekends and only one call and it needs to be every weekend or every other weekend but it must be consistent.

He gets pissy and says "that's all going to change when I get up there, I will have my boys!"

"Talk to the judge" is all I said and I hung up.

By the divorce agreement, his visitation is up to me and when I deem it safe and appropriate. So, I am going this week to the best divorce lawyer in town (I should of used him the first time) and get a consultation. That way meth head can't even try to use him....because I was there first.

Saturday night Ashton asked

"Mom, what's suicide?"
"It's when someone kills themselves"
"How do they do that?"
"Well, there are many different ways. Some people use guns, some take too many pills, some people cut themselves. Do you remember when your dad tried to kill himself?" (He did this several different times and always made a huge drama scene in front of the boys)
"No, but I remember him trying to kill you." I tear comes to my eye, I bite my lip and look down.
"Well, yes that was not a nice moment was it?"
"No, I don't know why he kept doing that. Can we go ride our bikes on the street?"
"Sure, let me get the phone."

Anything to change the subject.........

It was that last conversation that made me realize that I had been cranky towards everyone after talking to meth-head.


Guilt Sunday

I was a total hag yesterday--I allowed someone else to effect my mood with my boys.....so today.........we spent about 4 hours at the school playing and bike riding.....


Mischievous Bugs

Ashton's school play was tonight.....
he is such a stage person...

He was a black widow spider. They originally had legs made out of stuffed panty hose, but unfortunately they left them at the high school after this morning's rehearsal and the teenagers had a bit of fun with them....so they used their practice paper legs instead...

This is my first attempt at filming on my digital....I had the camera the wrong way at first...but I wise up and get it right...so be patient.....you can hear Ashton singing...he is so funny

This is Alec trying very hard to be good before the play started....we had to be there 45 minutes early....so he did very well and he got so excited when Ashton's group came forward on the stage. I had to hold on to him cause he tried to run up there.


Wordless Wednesday


I was attempting to get ready this morning when I realized that the cat had been sleeping in my dresser drawer. I had left it open a bit and he went to sleep on my bras. We have a cat, but I am slightly allergic to them. Makes my eyes water if they get to close to my face and after petting them I have to wash my hands or I will start itching. So, I couldn't wear any of the "normal" bras. I start digging and I find a minimizer bra. Why the heck do I have this??? and they don't really minimize...they dis-figure and smush....it makes a rather unattractive picture...kinda like this...

But, I don't want to be late for work....so I put it on, put on my shirt...and then I feel like this..

My hair wasn't curled yet....and I just freaked.....

So, I kept digging and I found an older one that I could wear. At least I didn't look like I had an inner-tube around my chest and it actually looked like I had breasts...

Why do women wear minimizer bra's???
Do guys wear minimizer jock straps??? NO!!!!

And...just an FYI....when you google "ugly"
this comes up on the first page!!!!


I hate Mondays like today!!!!

Normally, I really like Mondays....it's fun to be cheerful when everyone else is hung over or draggin'. But today.....It's a Bitch-Fest...

(tried to insert picture here....didn't work)

Newbie isn't talking to anyone...and is pouting....walking around dragging her feet.....and I am not going to ask her what is wrong. I came in this morning and said "Good Morning" directly to here and she didn't even blink, flip her hair or anything......so....I'M DONE!!!

Biker chick is her usual bitchy self and has decided to smear it into everyone's lives this morning. She is complaining about all of the guys that come to work smelling like beer...yet she smells like pot and stale beer... and if she leans over my desk one more time and breathes her hideous breath on me.....I'm gonna spit in her hair!!!!


So, I am staying in my office with Yahoo LaunchCast playing trying to ignore them.
How is your Monday????



My mom wanted to go to the Best Western for Mother's Day Brunch....

So we did---I think we should of saved the $80.00 and spent it on shrimp, juice, bacon and pancakes and cooked it ourselves......would of been much better....but...

This is AJ while trying to eat the peel-n-eat shrimp.... He has been spoiled and gotten accustomed to shrimp cocktail which is peeled for him. He had issues with pulling their legs off and de-veining them....

This is what invaded my bed this morning........



So sweet looking


so calm and quiet


So Innocient.....




Commenting on Mindless's Comment

Dating someone else is he???? (my Yoda imitation)

I'm gonna say "no". Have I ever asked him if he is?....no am I ever going to ask him?....no

My night vision stalker goggles are just not working like they should soooo........I have decided that since I believe in "Happily Ever After" and I believe he is the missing piece to this puzzle....I also chose to believe in him.

When I was going thru my separation and divorce...my life was hell. 18 months after is was over...meth head was still giving me hell..... So I am patient when it comes to dealing with the "EX" which is what is going on. I don't understand women that use children as weapons or as negotating (I don't think I spelled that right) objects. And this horrible scene usually only happens to the guys that truly love and care about their kids. I guess because it wouldn't work on the worthless men.

Children come first in my book. So, that explains a lot right there.....

Next, I honestly think that when he found me.....He was looking for a rebound skank. SURPRISE!!!! Instead he found me....Awesomely cool me....(ha-ha...self promotion there)

Anyway.....that is the explanation.

and....if you look...here.....and here...here..and....here...those are past dating experiences....not including the attempted one Friday night.....but if you look here you will see my blog the day before our first date......

Unfortunately, I wasn't blogging when I went on another internet date with a guy who looked seemingly normal voice was kinda weird on the phone....but...I was being flexible.... Got to the restaurant, sat down started talking and I realized he HAD NO TEETH!!! home grown or otherwise and when we were eating, he kept talking and food was flying out of his mouth. AAAGGGHHHHH...I had to stare at the chip basket for the rest of lunch.

So, I feel very fortunate that I have found my Northern Guy.......(deep sigh)


What This Girl Wants

Because I hope that eventually Northern Guy will pop in and read my last post......

Have you ever seen the movie "What a Girl Wants"? At the very end you find out that the mom had waited 17 years for "her man" to say or do something.

I honestly hope it doesn't take 17 years, but I am so with her on that feeling.

There is something between Northern Guy and I that I cannot explain. I get emotionally frustrated and crying out of control---yet I cannot be mad at him. Instead, I search for understanding in whatever is going on and somehow I always make the problem my fault. When in reality, it's really not a problem at all. It's just a lack of communication--which yes is a problem but not the one at hand that I am sobbing over at the moment.

I would gladly wait if I knew that is what he wanted. Heck, I AM and most likely will remain waiting whether he wants me to are not. Everytime I think I've had enough some glimmer of a past conversation will magically appear in my mind and all is right with the world.

Have tried the date thing, but it just doesn't seem right--talking on the phone, on-line or whatever...he is the one that is always on my mind.

I'm not like a night-vision goggle toting, "boil your bunny" stalker chick..... I just treasure every moment I have had with him and right now that seems to be enough. I've decided to quit searching for someone else to occupy my mind and/or time. It's not fair to them and it makes me miserable in the long run.

I just hope that some day things will work out, and I'll have my white knight.....big heart........ soft touch.......fast horse.... (Faith Hill)

I'm incredibly sappy right now...(as if you couldn't tell)

I think I'll go watch the Hallmark channel.......


Date From Hell #2--2006

(Note: I originally posted this around 8 am on May 6th. But feared that Northern Guy might read it I took it down. I did hear from him that day.....but dinner plans for today fell thru again.)
I don't know why I even try.......

Got an IM from "Mountain Man" who I have been talking to for a short time and he wanted to know if I would like to meet him for dinner up at Vallecito Lake....
(click the picture to go to their website) does work...sorry

So, I'm thinking cool....it's 7:40 pm.....I tell him I have to get ready...he says no need it's very casual....so I go comb my hair, talk to the teen he agrees to be the "warden" for the moment and I jump in the car. Have to gas up....(it's like 70 miles away)

Just so you know...I hate driving at night. Especially in the mountains...which was where I was going. I hate it because.....these

and smaller versions are on the highway.....And I don't care what you people say....WEREWOLVES are real. They are out there waiting to get you...especially on a Friday night on the highway to Durango.

And if they aren't werewolves....then they are "skin walkers" which I think is even worse!!!

Things are going okay on the drive..only see a few deer but not near the highway..thank goodness. Anyway I get to "Farmington Hill" which is this horrible hill that has about 4 blind "S" turns and the outside lane (the one for me to come home on) has spots with no guard rails. Scary Scary Scary.......one of my friends died on that hill which makes it even scarier. AND IT'S NIGHT TIME!!! and THERE ARE WEREWOLVES!!!! I make it down the hill fine and turn right at the bottom and head towards Bayfield, CO. The turn off to the lake is very close to Bayfield.

This highway is always busy and has lots of elk and deer so I am actually going the speed limit....I THOUGHT.....

Yes, lights flashing in the review mirror. I pull over and he walks up shining the dang flashlight in my side mirror just about blinding me then shines the damn thing right in my eyes. Now I know they have to look at me....but geesh.... He tells me he clocked me going 53 in a 50 and I need to slow down. Well to be honest I was looking for deer and didn't have the cruise control set so .....who the hell knows..... He keeps shining the damn light in my eyes and asks me if I've been drinking. I said "no". He said that my eyes were "glassy" I told him that my eyes are sensitive to light and that they are actually watering right now. Doesn't phase him. I discover that I had not put my new insurance card in the car but I had the two older ones so he didn't write me a ticket for that....whew......

Okay..back on the road...25 minutes later.....it's 9:15pm and I am supposed to meet "mountain Man" at 930pm and I am not even close!!!!! So I obey the speed limit...set the cruise control and get passed by angry drivers...oh well. Finally get to the lake turn off.....YEAH!!!!

Driving down the road and there is this road thing...it's a circle with 3 exits...one for the way I was going, one to turn right and then you have to keep going to the next one to continue on the road I was on which is what I wanted to do. I got off too soon and took me a bit to get turned around on the other road and get back to the stupid circle thing and go one spot further and get back on the correct road.....what the heck is that thing doing there??? That road isn't that busy....I think it's like a sobriety test or something....I flunked and I hadn't even been drinking.!!!!!

Okay...single lane mountain road/highway. In a forest type setting speed limit 40 mph most of the way....DEER EVERYWHERE. I think I must of stopped 12 times as they lolli-gaged across the road. Look at the watch...it's 9:54 pm....crap..... A car passes me...so I decide to follow him and go a little faster....

Thoughts of Northern Guy are racing thru my head...great I am going on a date and I am thinking of someone else. But I did pass the turn off to his house on the way up. I called his cell, no answer and I hung up before I got to voice mail. How can I be so pathetic??? and inconsiderate of this other guy??? I am worse than a werewolf.....

Something brown with 4 legs runs between me and him..... I almost hit it. I stop..Swerve and come to a stop. Heart racing....have to take a moment to stop my head from spinning. Screw going fast.....I will drive slow. My cell phone doesn't have a signal by now ...too many mountains so I can't call the restaurant...

Now, I've been to Vallecito Lake in the daytime...but never at night. I get lost in a one stop light town.....so you can imagine what is going on here. He told me to stay on pavement and I will have no problem.

10:25 pm I see all these cars parked on the road lots of lights on, so I'm thinking this must be some type of business and I can use the pay phone.....I pull over...get out.....get close to the other cars...something growls at me......WEREWOLVES!!!!!

Being the lost coward that I am I run back to my car, lock the doors and get the heck out of there. In my uncontrollable fear and unsupervised driving I realize I am now on a dirt road....CRAP!!!!!! I have to up a bit to get to a point where I can turn around....Finally get back down to the highway and get ready to turn left and another big damn deer....looking right at me. Those glossy beady brainless eyes just staring at me. CREEPY CREEPY CREEPY.....

He finally goes away so I can get by...10:45 pm. I go down the road a bit and I see no lights anywhere. Keep driving and keep driving and nothing just scary dark wooded area....11:00 pm....I still see nothing so I turn around and head back.

I suck at dating...... Thoughts of the two little boys won't leave my head. And how horrible I felt just blazing a trail and not spending time with them. Eyes tearing up but that helps to not see the creepy things on the side of the road. I get back to the main highway and start heading home.

Damn flashing lights in the review mirror again. I was only going 40 mph and it's a 50 mph zone.. Same damn "trooper". His reason was because I was going so slow and now my eyes are pink and very watery. He asks me if I have been drinking...I say "no" and then he asks why my eyes are so pink and watery...have I been doing drugs??? "No", I say...."I'm crying." He just looks at me and finally lets me go.

Then had to go back up the scary hill.......I hate going up that thing. No guard rails, no shoulder just black-top and a 3 mile drop...eewww.

Made it home okay. AJ just laughed at me when I told him what happened. Alec was sleeping in my bed. I crawled in to get close to him and he had a fever....more guilt....

Second Date from Hell this year....and I never even got to hook up with him....


P.S. I IM'd "mountain man" and apologized....doubt I will hear from him again....


Tree Knowledge

Mr. Fab asked what an elm seed is...he has the spikey balls....in his yard you sicko's

He has these.......

I have no idea what kind of tree this is....but I know it is cool to break these...all kinds of fuzzy stuff comes out....

I have elms and all of there dang seeds....aaaaggghhhh

The are small...and the wind blows them everywhere

Wednesday, it looked like it was snowing...but it was just the seeds blowing...

and if you don't get them up....you get trees everywhere

These are the trees...I'm surrounded by a mini forest of them

And these...are Handsome.....being.....well handsome....


Two men stabbed at new Wal-Mart

Farmington Daily Times - Local News

Now isn't that just great for a Grand Opening???


No Theme What-So-Ever

It's been a while....and no I did not become a "aaf" junkie.....

I did discover that there are hundreds of married men looking for no-strings sex...the main excuse I have seen is that their wife isn't interested in sex anymore. I have several theories on this--the main one is that the guy is very selfish...the rest I will keep to myself for a while.
The teen went to Las Vegas, NV for 4 days for a choir competition. They one every event they entered except one...and they took second. He sleep walks...alot....last year when he went with his girlfriend and her family to Salt Lake--he woke up in the stairwell three floors down naked!!!. Since they had 5 kids to a room, the guy on the cot put it in front of the door and AJ only did the sleepwalking thing once!!! He walked over to the cot and grabbed it, started shaking it till the guy yelled at him then he went back to bed!!!!
My yard is full of elm seeds.....I hate elm trees.....
Meth-head called Sunday to talk to the boys--he talked to each of them about 5 minutes each then I was tortured for the next 20 minutes. He was trying to cure his guilt by laying it on me. Saying how sorry he was and all this crap.
Finally I asked him "Did you put a bomb in my car or what??" He said he didn't understand. Then I had to explain to him that I'm over the bull-poo and had moved on and he needs to do the same. That led to the very bad attempt at fake crying so I just told him I had to go....
Registered Alec for kindergarten. I cried....my last baby.....
But that school office is so unorganized.....Mr. Winters (old principal) would turn over in his grave if he could see what was going on. FYI--I went to that school too....dang small towns...
Ashton got his blue belt in Twae kwon-do. He is growing up so fast......
Alec wants to be just like him...
What have you been up to?